Ever since I can recall I have not wanted to live. I pass through this existence every day hoping it will end. Given the opportunity I’d go out like Janis. From what I’ve heard, heroin deadens all of your pain and brings a sense of peace – a euphoria like nothing else. To be able to leave with at least a moments peace and elation after a lifetime of pain, suffering, and self-loathing added to the sense of being a bit closer to Janis, well, I can’t think of a better way for me to go.